Fish N' Chips Anyone?

                    I don't always cook a fancy meal... but when I do....

BAM!!!

Thanks to my Aunt for supplying those potatoes. ^_^

~ Crystal LM 👌👍😋🍛🍴🍷

Do I need any more reasons for hating Facebook?

I still keep receiving those pesky emails from Facebook... like this one:

And people actually do message you that crap! On FACEBOOK! My neighbor was even talking to me the other day about it... She said she kept getting instant/private messages from these guys. Rather crude, I guess. I would show you the rest of the photo, but you get the picture. And I wouldn't want to...

The horrors!

Yeah... I feel so much more free now. That I've quit that site. ^_^ I have more inner peace. And am happier.

Still don't regret that decision.

Granted, I'll still pop on every once in a great while. Just to look up a company, person, or to see if there are any free things that people are leaving by the curb and what not in the groups. But I refuse to participate in that god-awful site ever again!

It seems like that website was the absolute source of 90% of my problems!

Rude people. Crude photos. Politicians acting like children... I mean c'mon who gives a flying * if the president tweeted about something that has absolutely nothing to do with his... work... ?!

I mean really. This country has become like a laughing stock to the rest of the world! I was playing an online game the other day, and one of the nicer people on the chat from the UK I guess, said, "...Boy there must be too much stupid in the American water supply..."

Sounds about right to me.

I would have to agree.

Is this a country? Or a high school? Cause with all of these supposed, mature and important people... tweeting and bashing each other on social media... I'm beginning to wonder.

At any-rate, all of that precious time I had WASTED! While on that god-forsaken site... I could have been using elsewhere.

ACTUALLY LIVING MY LIFE...

Instead of... trying to...

to...

cater to others?!

I'm still not quite sure what I was doing...

But check this out.

Since I've been gone, I've gotten quite a lot done!

And my humble little home is getting more and more cozy everyday. (^.^)

                 


                As you can see,... I've managed to procure a rather nice little night stand. Free! [^_~] I cleaned it up, and tightened a few loose screws... the thing couldn't be more perfect!

It even has a couple extra compartments! For all of my bedside things. -^_^- 

                 And these lights really cheer me up. When I am feeling down. If I... can afford the extra electricity that is,... I will use them to cheer myself up sometimes. ^.^

And because I needed a use for the old night stand?...

               It really tidys up the kitchen. Enabling me to put all of my sewing supplies neatly in one corner. You know... until I can get that desk. >_>

               Tee hee... and just wait until you see what I have planned for the spare room! 😁...
               Glee...
               Truly something, I can look at... and feel proud of.

                 I like to think of it this way...
                            There is a solid basis for my decision to leave Facebook... ( 1 Corinth. 7:31). I might still have to go on Facebook... but I certainly... don't have to use it. (^_~*)

                It's kind of like... Bilbo when him and the dwarves were lost in the woods...
                Sometimes, we stumble and fall... and lose sight of the path... And wander about trying to find it. In a sort of state of confusion...
                But ultimately... the only way to see things clearly... to find your way again... is to rise above the situation.
                 Kind of the way he had to climb the trees in order to see which way they needed to go...
                And then...
                You can see everything... much clearer!


                 By the way...
                         Mac was adopted. I'm glad. May his new home, be a pleasant healing place for his soul. ^^. . .
                                                                                       

                                                                                                   ~ Crystal LM ✌👊💖😇🙌

Woof! (u.u')

                    I could be over exaggerating right now... But I can't help but feel an enormous sigh of relief! Hey,... it's my first time doing this man'e!

                         I have to say... this is the best most relieving email, I have ever received. Jehovah is truly answering my prayers. I only wish I could... do more for him...

                        I can't help but feel grateful. I keep feeling like... if I ever stop to... the gloom shall certainly overwhelm me.

                       After I get sick... I always get extremely depressed. It just follows hand in hand. After the storm passes, the ground is always soaked!
                       It never happens right afterwards... always like... hours after I start to feel better...

                       It's a routine of my body, I can't help but notice.

                      Still... I wonder...
                     Why I can't stop thinking about that poor poor cat...
                     
                     
                      His name...
                                  was Mac.

                                                                            ~ Crystal LM 😌😔😿

~!~ The Power of the Holy Spirit (O_o!) ~!~

Wah! Finally got my taxes done last night. Took all day! But of course, I had to pause briefly for a visit from my nosy downstairs neighbor. [-_-']  She's sweet. But holy cow! What a talker!
            But she did bring me more food, so I really can't complain. :-)
             She had gone to another food pantry in town. Of course she's lived here much longer than I have, and knows just about every place around (in this area) that gives out food to the needy!
             Anyways, she had extra and needed to pass it on again. ^_^ I welcomed her generosity. But tried to explain that I cannot eat the bread stuffs. So, at least this time, it was mostly veggies anyway. But good grief! That girl can talk!
             Poor thing, though. I have a feeling she doesn't have many people to talk to. Of course neither do I... but... I...
             Well, whatever.
             The only thing I really don't like about her, is that she seems to sort of gossip a bit. About the other neighbors in the building. While I usually don't mind mentioning others. I don't really care to talk about them when they are not present. Unless of course you are trying to explain something important about them to someone else.
             Ah, well. Old ladies, eh?

            At least I have been able to give a good witness to her. ^_^
             Because she kept saying that she feels that she was brought to this specific apartment complex for a "reason" and every time she mentions that (which she's done now numerous times) she always looks toward me rather funny like.
            It seems she does have... a form of spirituality. (Protestant). And that despite her worldly ways, she does seem to have a deep form of morality. Which is good. I guess.
          Anyhow, it's funny. Because she believes that old adage, "All good dogs go to heaven". Lol Just kidding. I mean people.
          But yeah. And so I was able to explain to her, that I was a Jehovah Witness. And that... I believed that the earth would one day be transformed by God into a paradise.
          As a protestant, she seems to be stuck on the idea that... We shouldn't have our minds on the things of this world. But should focus on the things of "up there". I assume she means heaven. Haha. Because God didn't mean for us to be here on this world...
         Ooooookaaaaay?...
         And despite my valiant efforts to get a word in edge wise with her,... wah! What a gabber!
         I was able to explain a few truths to her...

        But the thing I found to be most amazing about this whole conversation... is that... as I spoke to her... it was like... all of those scriptures... all of the ones that... pertained to what we were talking about... Just seemed to come back to me!
          I was able to not only quote those scriptures this time,... but even tell her where in the bible they were found!!   [O_o]
          I even amazed her...
       
       Yeah, my parents... may have been... a lot of things...
       But I will say this for them...
       They did a good job of instilling bible truths in me. And explaining them!
     

      She even told me, that I was lucky that my parents had explained the scriptures to me. Even at a young age! Because all her parents did, was quote the scriptures. They apparently didn't know what they all meant. And so when she asked them about... (Things like, if God created all things, who created God?  The things a typical child would ask a parent.) Her parents would... struggle to find the answers. And give her... I guess a... foggy sort of answer. That would leave her wondering.
        But I remember... when I was a child. Asking that same very question.
         And my father explained to me. Amazingly. That he(God) was NEVER created. Because he is the Alpha and the Omega! And that because we are humans, we cannot understand this. Because we deal in absolutes. (All things have a beginning and a beginning always has an end.) But that we can possibly truly never fathom, infinity! And so, understanding that God was never created. Might be rather difficult for us!
       
           There are some things. Man may never truly know. And really. It's not for us to know.

         She was impressed by this. And my knowledge of the scriptures. And expressed a desire to memorize them as well...
         However... she is caught up in some sort of Protestant Preacher's ideals and teachings. So... I don't know if I might ever be able to get through to her.
        Still...

          If I could only have counted our conversation as time! We must have talked for over an hour!!
       
           Oh, well. But I am amazed at how the Holy Spirit works!

          I guess... you never really forget some things. ^_~


                                                                                         
                                                                          ~ Crystal LM 😌😊🙊📖

(O_o) -Those Taxing Taxes- (o_O)

Right, so... I'm feeling a bit better today. Ya. And I've decided to take it easy... just work on filing my taxes...

. . . .
. . . .

                     I think I finally understand why people have others do them...
To be honest. I thought it would be easy. Esp. with a website like... e-file. Or TurboTax... O_o    ... But... yeah...

I think Bernard expresses how I'm doing with that...

I think I will just go back and get some more rest, then... Feeling a bit drained from... the chaos! I may have discovered some possible exemptions... But... there are a few complications... and I'm not quite sure... I may have to just skip the part about SSI earnings. They don't give out the tax form to people who just get Supplimental SI... {@_@}

Right, then. I'm off to bed. 😴

~ Crystal LM 😵😶😕😩😴✏💱💰📁💻📊📉📈💫

Tears & Pain

We all make mistakes...

But I often feel like... My mistakes... are killing me inside!

I may have pushed myself too hard this time.

I'm scared. And crying again.

My tummy really hurts.

And it's all my fault.

I should have taken the time... to fix a proper meal. A proper lunch...

But instead... I... just grabbed something quick. And was half starved. And ate too much of it. All because I... wasn't thinking. And made another stupid rash decision.

This hurts.

In more ways than one.

I helped the groundskeeper out. Because he needed to get rid of a piece of furniture that somebody else was throwing out. And I felt I could most certainly use it.

So I agreed to take it, if he could help me get it into the apartment.

That was fine.

But then the other nice neighbor below me, wished for my attention. We talk every so often, because she also lives alone. And is recently retired with not much to do...

Anyways, she had found out I was trying to get a cat at one time. But I explained to her why it didn't work out. That I love cats. But... I... maybe thought I needed an older one. One that didn't demand so much of my attention. Since I tend to struggle with other things...

Well, she wanted to help me find one. So she got online and asked if she could help me out. She offered to take me to the local shelter to see what kind of kitties they had there. But I explained I did not have the money to get one now. And the pet deposit... I wouldn't be able to cover until possibly next month...

She even offered to front me the adoption fee. Because they are having a special now. Only $15.00 to adopt... And said that it couldn't hurt to at least look. And see what they've got.

So I went.

But without eating.

Like a fool.

I came back half starved. And ate too many problem foods...

Aye Dios Mio! Why Jehovah? Why me?...

Why can I not stand firm and strong?

Why must I suffer this chronic pain? Fatique? Depression and Anxiety?

Why can I not be like everybody else?

Why!? Sob

It hurts...

I can feel the pain of the kitty. He is 3-4 years old. Tired. And sick with depression. I feel his pain. I want to help him. But I cannot even help myself. And that is perhaps... the most depressing thing...

...of all.

When I met him at the shelter, he looked soo sad. Soo laid back and... just soo down. And his picture... we are kindred spirits, he and I. For this world has made us gravely ill.

I feel my words are like “wild talk” (Job 6:2,3). But I cannot help for agony.

~ Crystal LM  😢🙇😫

Hahahaha I'm lovin it! ^^

                   I am loving these Texas winters! The cold comes for a little bit. Might bring a flurry or two. And then she flies off, like a robin in the spring... You enjoy the cooler weather. And then it returns to heat. ^_^  But it only stays long enough for you to enjoy.

                    It's funny tho, because I just saw on the news. That parts of upstate New York have gotten 47 Inches of snow!  That's like... six feet!! That's taller than I am!!! Holy cow! And meanwhile, we down here chillin in the 60s  (-^_^-)  Sippin ice tea, and back to wearing shorts. Haha. Poor northerners.

lmao *snort*  Upset much? North folk are.

                                                                                      ~ Crystal LM 💖😁🌱🌷🌸🌺🌻🌼🐦