A Personal Message:

To the people who think they can count on me, despite my often intense periods of depression, anxiety, and general cowardice...

🎵"...understand... that when I can... I will... Try to understand... that when I can... I will..."🎵


~ CLynn --

Something to really be proud of...

🎵🎶"...if the sun was always shining and our load always light we’d be shaking like a leaf with every God given night and we’d break under the weight of any pressure that was ever applied..." 🎶🎵

I'm sharing my "Soft Skills Paper" I wrote for this last module. Because I am truly proud of what I wrote. I may be a lot of things, but I can sure in hell write a damn good paper. {^_~*}

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Click Here to View the paper: "The Skills We Need to Succeed." By Crystal Lynn Miller

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"It don’t matter if the cold wind blows I’m gonna wind up working in the thick of it, sunshine through the rain and snow..."

~ Bilgewater

Truer words...

~ CLynn

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I think I would very much... like to create a business of avoiding people in general.
            Just sell the idea... and make millions... ;)

~ CL 😌


glad he cut his hair, tho. X-P

"Stop! -- It's too late... I'm feeling frustrated!!.... I see no sign of fortress... I see no sign of fortress..."

It is important to understand that with grit, it isn't about how difficult the challenge is you face or how many challenges you face or how long a challenge lasts, it is all about your personal willingness to succeed through the muck. And nobody can define your muck. What may be a huge challenge for one person may not register as a challenge for another.

I personally would define ‘grit’ in the same way in which I would define “Moxy”. As a spirit of defiance, in which no amount of failings can deter one from achieving a set goal or mission.

            I say it in this way, because I’m always telling myself that, that is what I need more of. Moxy. I need more Moxy. More tenacity! More drive and passion for something almost beyond reason! A passion so strong, that no amount of backlashing can put it in its place!

            But when I compare the two phrasings. Grit becomes to me, more of a survival skill. I feel now, that grit is like Moxy’s gentler cousin. The one that gives her a purpose for her eccentric guts and stubborn spunk.

            Without both, it’s rather hard to continue in spite of hard times. And a passion, or strong enthusiasm/desire for something, is the only way I know to get it!

            For me, I believe this will be crucial for me to maintain, while attending school online. As I really do not have a solid support group at home. Living alone, I would liken to… being stranded on a space station. You get weekly phone/video conferences from home, and an update or two here and there… but in the end, your still alone up there…

                A study done by a health organization in London stated, “Loneliness and social isolation  are harmful to our health:  research shows that lacking social connections can be as damaging to our health as smoking 15 cigarettes a day!” (Sheet, 2015).

            Social isolation for me, is probably one of the biggest emotional triggers to my depression. And some days, I often feel I’ve become rather… almost physically sick from it! From the isolation. Until I talk to someone. Usually a neighbor or someone who I can mildly relate to in some way. And then it’s almost like you have the strength to continue on for a bit longer before getting sick from it again.

            However, I also feel that this feeling… this… sickness of isolation… has become my driving active ‘grit’, constantly pushing me forward. To get to where I want to be. To make it back home, in the case of the astronaut analogy.

            For some, they spend their entire career not knowing or understanding what they are passionate about. For others, it is as clear as day and serves as a clear beacon in an otherwise foggy career path. It is this passion that often leads to success. (Crawford, 2012).

            And so even as isolation and depression are my greatest flaws, perhaps. They are also my inherent “grit” for achieving my goals in the academic world. And my passion to aid others, may be a greater motivating force in continuing through my future work and career despite the hard times.

References

Crawford, T. (2012, January 24). Motivation And Work Ethics: Passion Fuels the Engine. Retrieved from Avoa: https://avoa.com/2012/01/24/motivation-and-work-ethics-passion-fuels-the-engine/

Sheet, F. (2015). Mental Health Impact of Loneliness & Social Isolation. London: Public Health - Havering London Borough. Retrieved from https://www3.havering.gov.uk/Documents/Public-health/PH/docs/Mental-Health.pdf

🎵Nobody Move... Nobody move...🎵🎶

~ 😢💧

It's not in making friends...

It's in making the right friends...

And trusting again. -

A Little of My Darkness To Purge...

Right... so. . . I thought about this, and I feel it necessary to share on my blog. So that everyone can understand the struggles I face...

This mod's course has been rough for me. Bringing up past ghosts. And facing new monsters...

All necessary I am told. To build Character.

My Contribution to last weeks Class Discussion Post:

                                         

"I would have to agree with Kourtney. Excellent topic choice Dora. I too have been in an abusive relationship myself. And although I've noticed that the abuse doesn't always happen from the beginning of a relationship, it can and does occur. Though, mine was all verbal. I'd say Kourtney was spot on about that. They always try to make everything out to be your fault. He would yell and scream at me over the dumbest things, until I would start to cry. And often times continue for hours afterwards. And I still have issues thinking over-critically about myself now. It had gotten soo bad, that I had got to the point of contemplating suicide! And eventually was forced to relocate. (long story). But anyhow, I would say that the third fact you stated was the fake one. Because their belittling you or calling you names are both most definitely signs of abuse. Verbal and emotional can be just as hurtful as the physical. And often times the verbal and emotional scars take even longer to heal. Take it from me. Been there, done that. Never going back. Thanks for sharing this."

They say:            

 

Sometimes... the greatest fears. . . can come from within...

🎵"...this mess, we've tried our best with something we can do..."🎵

 

      

~ CLynn 🚮

To An Empty Life,... even Chaos is Welcome...

More Wisdom from the Chasm: 

           

~  CLM. ⛆   {-_-,}

Robbing the Hood

New U.S. Budget Is A 'Hoax,' Says Republican Senator Bob Corker

 

And it's true:   "The new budget will leave much of the same spending made in 2017 in place, BUT it outlines $473 billion in cuts from the federal healthcare program Medicare and $1 trillion from Medicaid over the next decade.

...
Trump says he wants to end the Estate Tax on fortunes of more than $11 million per family, which could save him and his ultra rich cabinet members billions of dollars in taxes."

And that may have been what started the "Great Depression" & "The Great Recession". Be aware of these occurances... as this could lead to a horrible disaster. 

~ CL

Ok,... Jessica Jones

Right... so am I a fool to be holding onto a dream-like idea of joining a cyber crime fighting task force?

                                     Oddly enough,... I've finally figured out why I've been soo depressed lately...

You can chalk it up... to eating something I shouldn't have. . . not knowing what the effects would be...

                          Though, I'm always working out solutions to my stomach issues... And I seem to have a lot of them. Or. . . perhaps the combination of bad food choices and hormonal imbalances. . . well... screw trying to figure things out!! The point is... it ain't easy.
             It's enough to drive a girl to drink... 🍺🍹🍸🍷      I was just thinking. . . maybe I should buy a case of somethin and get smashed over the weekend... that way I wouldn't have to suffer this. . . food post-depression which has no doubt already taken hold.

                       Still. . . I get this feeling I could cheer myself up, by helping out some poor sob with their own horrid lives by working in that kind of a field...

               And then, I find out one of my teachers has actually worked for the FBI before... and that she can probably help me to get in with "the lead federal agency for investigating cyber attacks by criminals, overseas adversaries, and terrorists."      https://www.fbi.gov/investigate/cyber

                 And suddenly my life doesn't seem so bleak...
    Then I find out. . . that... there is a super hero comic based on just such a character. . . !?!

               The creepiest part of this tale?

Makes me wonder. . . if I'm not being followed already...

                             

 Her description even matches:   "She is a super strong, depressed, drunk with good detective skills."

~  http://www.mynewsdesk.com/se/house-of-test/blog_posts/superhero-personas-51846



O_o!               And so me thinks I shall need to check out the show:

                    ~ CLynn ?  JJ  ._.

Some Assignments... Make me (,-,_,-,)

Oh, oh oh oh oh woh oh... I think there's a flaw in my :code:><>< . . . Oh, woh oh woh oh. . .

                       Seems like I'll never get there... trying so hard to make a life out of this. . . existence.

                                                         

                                                                 ~ <://CL:>

Haven't seen a video yet of his I didn't like... 😎

                                                        ~ CL

I learned a new word today !...

 

BIOMETRICS

 

Official Def. 

noun, ( used with a singular verb)

1.

Biology, Statistics. biostatistics.

2.

biometry (def 1).

3.

the process by which a person's unique physical and other traits are detected and recorded by an electronic device or system as a means of confirming identity:

Scanning of the human iris is a reliable form of biometrics.

 

Source:    http://www.dictionary.com/browse/biometrics?s=t

 

 

HURRAY LEARNING!!

This must be the life... >^_^<  meow.   Sleeping on mommy's bed, while she studies...

 

                        Strange... how whenever I don't get out much, I tend to feel ten times happier. . . I wonder why?

 

 More pretty hair... captured!!!  (*.*)

 Why do I bother to brush it?  I often wonder...  Looks like an elvish princess style to me. But, meh. Whateves. The point is, it's beauty-full. ^_^

 

 

Also I want to share this song... in case He's still listening:

 

 

 

   

🎶"To find my way... Back into the arms..."🎶

And "All she wants is just that something to hold onto..."

~ 3 Doors Down

Still dreaming. . .

~ CLynn 

Intellectually Daydreaming...

                  Good advice from a psychology major.


And this is what I'ld say to ppl who always tell me I'm too quiet:
                                    
                             

 

Lol. But, I do love my morning coffee and intellectual reading delves. Nothing wakes the brain-box up, quite like an intense study of advance research paper writing strategies. ^_^

BTW: If anyone who reads this, should be interested in what it is I do each day for school/college purposes... or perhaps what I've up to all this time?:

 

You can also find a copy of this and hopefully many more on my online professional eportfolio!
         You heard right!
                                               EPortfolio!!

Link here:       Crystal Lynn's Professional Portfolio

               And keep an eye on this space, as I shall post any and all awards here in future. As well as current and overall exciting academic progress. ^^   Squeeeeeeeeeeee. It's not much yet... but it's a start.


                                                             ~ Crystal Lynn❤ 👍 🙋 💼 📈 📚

Bah who the heck took these?

Oh, right... dead tired I wuz...

              Beautiful bedhead tho. Whenever I first wake up. [*.*]

 

Time fur sum liquid energy =

                             Liquid Energy Brain Food...


                       with all them vitar-mines and miner-all -mines. Miner... All (in da) Mines. Sorry, I get a kick from plays on...

              Of course when you work in a soda can pressing factory... it can get soda - pressing!...
                       Shutting up now. . .

~ CL

People's Reactions Are Priceless...

                        Seriously messed up news, mane!!  o_O


                                                                  ~ CLynn   😂😅😝🙆