-+- Don't Mess With the Mavis -+- X-D

            It's funny, because Mavis is alot like me... when we get in that certain mood. Which doesn't happen too often... for me once a month or so... for Mavis, its more like every week or so...

                But when she gets in one of her hissy moods!   Watch Out!

lmao

She's a hell of a cat, eh? Even Captn. Kirk can't calm her down. Lmao. 😄

(video courtesy of  "Cat's Paw" - Star Trek Episode #07 -  Season 02)

~ Crystal LM 😁🐾😾

                               

Shake Rattle n' Roll...

                     To the Aunt that didn't get, when I said... "rattling those pots and pans!?" . . . Here is the song, I was trying to quote:

                                 

                       🎶🎷  "Get out in that kitchen and rattle those pots and pans..."  🎺🎵

                                                           "...the more I work,... the faster my money goes. . .  X-P



                       And this one's just causea, I know you love The Supremes. -^_^-

Still love their sound... it's timeless!

~ Crystal LM 💋💖😊⏳🎶🎵🎼💃

                                                             

Be Careful What You Wish For... ^_~

I would just like to take a moment... to thank Jehovah for the wonderful blessings I have received this month...

And also to say:  Be careful what you wish for... hahaha... I'll never again run out of eggs! ^_^

And the platanos are especially sweet this time. -^_^-  Haven't had a bad one yet!

Also, I wish to share wit you, this painting at my doctor's office. I just noticed it in the hall.

The rarest art, is hardest to find.

Holy cow! That's alot of eggs!!  [o_O]

~ Crystal LM 👀😵🍚🍳🍲🐣🐤🐥🐔

"Nobody taught 'er, it takes alot of water..."

I love this song... soo much fun to sing along. ^_^

                      And the moral of that story?  --  Never argue with an old man born underneath a Louisiana moon... ^_~*


                                                                   ~ Crystal LM 🙌💕🎶🎵🎼

The End?

Every time, I see this picture... . . . . it kind of breaks my heart. 😢

I. . . keep thinking... why don't people understand?

But then... I suppose. . . they'll never understand.

I just wish...

To GOD. . . that... just once. . . just once,... I could find someone. . .. . . . . . . 

who'd understand.

You cannot ever buy...

that kind of comfort.

So is this the end?

Is this how it all ends?

Not the family... 

But my own experiences. . .

with...

Sometimes...

I just feel soo alone in this world. . .

...

Even surrounded by people... and things... without. . . a measure of understanding...?
          Where are you?

                                                                           ~ Crystal LM  (another empty soul)

Being Chased by Evil...

                    Isn't it funny? How when you feel as though you're running from something, the faster you run, the more it seems like someone is chasing you?

                    It's odd,... but that is how I had been feeling of late. . . .

           It seems this past week has been a bit of darkness... a bit of evil... and a bit of misery catching up with me. 😓

            I fear. . . for ...

          They've sent me letters... they're no longer going to give me food stamps!  😧 Even though, I mentioned to them, that I had been laid off!!  This has never happened to me before!!! Has it? O_o

            So now I've got to rush down to their office, on Monday or Tuesday... because Monday I have a lot of phone calls to make... just to argue with them in person. {-_-'}

          To top that, housing sent a nice little letter today. 😢 They're going to kick me off of housing, just because I can't get the freakin transaction history from my card for November, December, and January... >_<

           I swear, if I lose my home over all of this..., . . . .. .. I think I'll just kill myself........................

                       I feel like my world around me is beginning to crumble slowly, like a wet cake left out in the rain....

And despite the fact, that I do recall this happening with my food stamps in the past..., I cannot help but worry my brains out about not having any food.

My bills are returning as well to their high state.

And with no food,...

. . .

This is the reason... I haven't been sleeping at night.

And probably also the reason, my stomach keeps hurting from all of the stress and worry.

Aye, Dios!

Rescue me from this evil!

~ Crystal LM 😬😰😳😥😖😢😟💀

A Familiar Face. . .

This week, I feature, and have been fascinated by the engaging tale of "King Charles III" on Masterpiece!

This has so far been a very gripping play. On the true story of King Charle's Reign. Nothing like a royal family feud to keep you entertained...

            Though, in some ways I can relate to the aging prince/king... He loved his mother dearly. And when she died everything around him, seemed to fall apart!

           It's understandable, why he desired to stand his ground on that issue. For centuries, the royal family has always had a say in the ruling of the country. In the laws of the land! And now, they were being pushed aside for the first time(well ok, it wasn't the first time this happened. But it clearly seemed the last.)... in favor of democracy.
           It wasn't just the principle of the matter... it was the honor of the throne, he defended. The right that set their nation aside from all of the others. By having a monarch, a royal family... which held an important, though small place, in the politics of their nation. Setting them apart from all of the other nations. And giving them a culture as rich and historical as the cultures of the east...
           Though, now that they no longer held a measure of power over the land,. . . people often wonder. What is the reason for having a royal family in the first place?
          And though, some may speculate on that. Saying that it simply gives them a measure of prestige, honor, or something to idolize, and a famed sort of dignity, that can only come from a... Royal source!
           Charle's knew! He knew that by diminishing that right... the right for the King or Queen to aid in the politics of the land,... that it would leave the Royal Family with no power. And ultimately,... no substance.
           It's rather sad, I think.
           That they've been reduced to just being like celebrities among the common British Citizens. They have no say in it anymore. So. . . they've become just a rich celebrity family, that live in the castles their ancestors built.
           In my opinion, They can call them Royal. They can call them King. But,... when Charles signed that document... and advocated the throne,. . . when he gave up the right to aid in the decisions of his country,... He also gave up. . . being King.

             They're just a rich bunch of people, now.
             

                 They like to call, The Royal Family.

                                                                             ~ Crystal LM 😔😑🏰

Would you care for a cup of coffee? - -

You know I be doin breakfast right. ^_^      Pork sausage courtesy meh local food pantry...

Sausage and egg with English muffins dat butter and jam.

Bon apetite!

~Crystal LM 👍😉😋🍛☕

+=+ Brace for Impact! +=+

             

                               I found this article on Yahoo... The girl is right. That is exactly how it feels to have depression!

                I will quote her:

               “Depression isn’t beautiful,” she was quick to clarify. “Depression is bad hygiene, dirty dishes, and a sore body from sleeping too much. Depression is having 3 friends that are only still around because they have the patience and love of a saint. Depression is crying until there’s no more tears, just dry heaving and sobbing until you’re gasping for your next breath. Depression is staring at the ceiling until your eyes burn because you forget to blink. Depression is making your family cry because they think you don’t love them anymore when you’re distant and distracted. Depression is somatic as well as emotional, an emptiness you can physically feel.”

Yahoo News Article: https://www.yahoo.com/beauty/woman-brushing-hair-first-time-4-weeks-shows-impact-depression-191644394.html

              When you have it, there are only a few things that truly help... Vitamin D, Medication, and above all... comfort. It's more of a pain that you can't make go away... so you really can't make it just go away with a simple promise. Or a statement that it will all be over soon...

              Not that I'm depressed now... but. . . I do feel a bit down today. It's mostly... just... a longing I have.

   Lmao. Love this show... 

            But I wrote the following when I was really down. . . and still working through that pain:

    
        "I need some sun. I need my sunshine... I feel like a flower that's been stepped on.
All hunched over and crushed by the weight of this world.
                     All of the added stress, anxiety, and self-realization has hit me hard!
            Like a semi-truck smashing into a stalled car on the freeway.
           My heads been throbbing like a war drum pounding out a Norse tribe's doom!

          If only rest would come for me. The way a feather comes to fall gently upon a calm body of water. Or the way a leaf falls gently from a tree in the fall.
          I would soak in it. Like a sea sponge expanding amid the waves. Or like a starfish returning to life after being tossed back into the sea.
            Oh, let me rest among those healing waves of warmth and sunlight. And let the peace wash over these newly made wounds."

                 Have you ever had a moment in time, where you found yourself at the intersection of a whole new set of crossroads?
          The plane has crashed... the survivors are few, battered, and weakened, but in general fine?
           And looking into a mirror... you find yourself asking,  "Where do we go from here?"

         Well,. . .  I have found this very moment. Huddled along with the meager survivors of a shattered existence.
           And I cannot help but wonder.
            "Where do we go from here?"

            Where?

     God only knows. . .

                                                                        ~ Crystal LM ⛅✨🌌

Where the trains of thought derail...

           Right so. Did you know?  -   That trying to carry a large load up a hill backwards can be hazardous to your health?!?

Yes!

And what's more. It can discourage the hell outta ya!

I know that half of you will probably not get that analagy, but no one pays attention to me anyways. So I will ventilate my thoughts until this blog explodes from them!!  +^_^+
                              And hopefully create an absolutely original form of art all my own. Via the use of visual words. X-P

Damnit!! Just call me!!! You kno who you are. (>_<).

YOUR SISTA WANTS TO TALK TO YOU! haha.

I know I'm a freak. That's never gonna change. :-/

Anyhowz, on another note...

Standing back and viewing the situation from another angle has it's advantages! Fo examp. You can figure on a different, possibly more successful way of achieving the same goal. Where there's a will, there is always a way... You just have to be dedicated to finding it. And willing to try every possible route!

A public judge once said, "That is the very definition of Insanity! Is... Doing the same things over and over again, but expecting a different outcome!"

If you only go in one direction, . . . you may never find the right one!

>_>

I think that the route I've been on here, is actually me just chasing some lurid fantasy of mine. [9_9] Come to think of it, that would never ever happen!!! Prolly not even in a movie!

However, it may make a unique story... 💭 (>_>)  Nice.

I'll always have my writing. [^_^] 'Yo escribe cartas.'   And coming along splendidly I might add. But I'll explain more and why later... I don't expect anyone to actually continue reading these posts. But ta hell with popularity!

~Crystal LM😶🙊

Step right up. . . .

                          Life is alot like a juggling act... people expect you to just pick up those balls or whatever... and start juggling them like a pro.

                   But if you've never even caught one before... it can be quite a challenge to learn to juggle!

In the end. You usually end up dropping them, several times, before you can master the art.

I don't know if I'll ever get it together.

But I'm just hoping to find the strength to carry on...

                                                                      ~ Crystal LM

-|- OverEmotional -|-

           Well... this is IT! I've had it with this... have you heard from me at all lately?!?  NO! And it's not just because I've been working... working myself down to the bone... It's because I've also been struggling. And have found nothing good/new to say. I'm tired of pretending it's all shit and giggles. Unicorns and rainbows! It's not!! And I need to vent!
                  So... ta hell with society!! If you don't want to hear me complain... tough cookies! Go live your own life then. And just return to ignoring me. The way 90% of society is forced to be ignored!!!

                   I'm Over Emotional! It is an actual human trait! But it's not because I was born this way, or because I was raised by wolves... lol. No... It's because when I eat something, that my body doesn't like, it rejects said food, causing stomach cramps, bloating, fatigue, and this is all followed by a major depression that often lasts for a couple of days!!!      (sometimes also a subtle itchy rash will form, leaving within the hour).

                  But try explaining that to someone!!!!

                  When they see you crying, or looking down, lower than usual... and they ask, "Why are you depressed? Or Why are you crying?"  And you really don't know why... because your body is forcing you to feel that way over something you ate days ago... How do you explain that?!?  Often times, I can't remember what it was that caused the issue days ago. I end up having to think back... like:   "Did I have any stomach aches this past week/weekend?"   And when I remember abdominal cramps... then. . . there you go!

             But sometimes, I can't catch what it is right away... and I can't just . . . say, "Oh, no. I'm depressed because it was something I ate." or "Something that's wrong with me... presently?"

             And I really don't feel like going into it anymore...

             So from now on,...
                          I'm just going to tell everybody... that I have the same trait, (personality trait) as my Sim (Sims 3).                

 I AM OVER-EMOTIONAL!

                          There you have it... I'm alot like my sim. My sim isn't actually in any of these photos, however. Because I cannot seem to generate a screenshot of her. -_-'       But you get my point.

               Did you know?         That my Sim with this trait is over-emotional? And at random times, may stop what she is doing... and for no apparent reason at all, begin to weep? Then she returns to her tasks as though nothing had happened. And she will also laugh at random...

              Well, I've got a lot of work to do now... and even though, I feel the need... and the desire to relax and enjoy my days off,... I cannot!
             Thank you, bills.
             Thank you, hunger.
              Thank you, laundry at home.
              Thank you, doctor's appointments...
             Thank you, exhaustion.
             And thank you, research/paper work *for housing renewal and food stamps yearly check in*/ and studying for that damned test AGAIN!! (>_<)

          *screaming internally*

             But I refuse!  To give up!
                        I will carry this thing! Until it's bitter... bitter... end!!

                                                            My therapist told me,... "Don't let this... (the mental illness, ect...) don't let this hold you back. If you can get past it... Then do what you wish. Just don't let it hold you back. Or stop you from going forward with your dreams/goals."

                                                                                   Good Day!!!

                                                   ~Crystal LM 😠🔪