Tuesday, May 2, 2017

-|- OverEmotional -|-

           Well... this is IT! I've had it with this... have you heard from me at all lately?!?  NO! And it's not just because I've been working... working myself down to the bone... It's because I've also been struggling. And have found nothing good/new to say. I'm tired of pretending it's all shit and giggles. Unicorns and rainbows! It's not!! And I need to vent!
                  So... ta hell with society!! If you don't want to hear me complain... tough cookies! Go live your own life then. And just return to ignoring me. The way 90% of society is forced to be ignored!!!


                   I'm Over Emotional! It is an actual human trait! But it's not because I was born this way, or because I was raised by wolves... lol. No... It's because when I eat something, that my body doesn't like, it rejects said food, causing stomach cramps, bloating, fatigue, and this is all followed by a major depression that often lasts for a couple of days!!!      (sometimes also a subtle itchy rash will form, leaving within the hour).

                  But try explaining that to someone!!!!

                  When they see you crying, or looking down, lower than usual... and they ask, "Why are you depressed? Or Why are you crying?"  And you really don't know why... because your body is forcing you to feel that way over something you ate days ago... How do you explain that?!?  Often times, I can't remember what it was that caused the issue days ago. I end up having to think back... like:   "Did I have any stomach aches this past week/weekend?"   And when I remember abdominal cramps... then. . . there you go!

             But sometimes, I can't catch what it is right away... and I can't just . . . say, "Oh, no. I'm depressed because it was something I ate." or "Something that's wrong with me... presently?"

             And I really don't feel like going into it anymore...

             So from now on,...
                          I'm just going to tell everybody... that I have the same trait, (personality trait) as my Sim (Sims 3).                


 I AM OVER-EMOTIONAL!





                          There you have it... I'm alot like my sim. My sim isn't actually in any of these photos, however. Because I cannot seem to generate a screenshot of her. -_-'       But you get my point.

               Did you know?         That my Sim with this trait is over-emotional? And at random times, may stop what she is doing... and for no apparent reason at all, begin to weep? Then she returns to her tasks as though nothing had happened. And she will also laugh at random...

              Well, I've got a lot of work to do now... and even though, I feel the need... and the desire to relax and enjoy my days off,... I cannot!
             Thank you, bills.
             Thank you, hunger.
              Thank you, laundry at home.
              Thank you, doctor's appointments...
             Thank you, exhaustion.
             And thank you, research/paper work *for housing renewal and food stamps yearly check in*/ and studying for that damned test AGAIN!! (>_<)

          *screaming internally*

             But I refuse!  To give up!
                        I will carry this thing! Until it's bitter... bitter... end!!

                                                            My therapist told me,... "Don't let this... (the mental illness, ect...) don't let this hold you back. If you can get past it... Then do what you wish. Just don't let it hold you back. Or stop you from going forward with your dreams/goals."

                                                                                   Good Day!!!

                                                   ~Crystal LM 😠🔪
               

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