I found this article on Yahoo... The girl is right. That is exactly how it feels to have depression!
I will quote her:
“Depression isn’t beautiful,” she was quick to clarify. “Depression is bad hygiene, dirty dishes, and a sore body from sleeping too much. Depression is having 3 friends that are only still around because they have the patience and love of a saint. Depression is crying until there’s no more tears, just dry heaving and sobbing until you’re gasping for your next breath. Depression is staring at the ceiling until your eyes burn because you forget to blink. Depression is making your family cry because they think you don’t love them anymore when you’re distant and distracted. Depression is somatic as well as emotional, an emptiness you can physically feel.”
Yahoo News Article: https://www.yahoo.com/beauty/woman-brushing-hair-first-time-4-weeks-shows-impact-depression-191644394.html
When you have it, there are only a few things that truly help... Vitamin D, Medication, and above all... comfort. It's more of a pain that you can't make go away... so you really can't make it just go away with a simple promise. Or a statement that it will all be over soon...
Not that I'm depressed now... but. . . I do feel a bit down today. It's mostly... just... a longing I have.
But I wrote the following when I was really down. . . and still working through that pain:
"I need some sun. I need my sunshine... I feel like a flower that's been stepped on.
All hunched over and crushed by the weight of this world.
All of the added stress, anxiety, and self-realization has hit me hard!
Like a semi-truck smashing into a stalled car on the freeway.
My heads been throbbing like a war drum pounding out a Norse tribe's doom!
If only rest would come for me. The way a feather comes to fall gently upon a calm body of water. Or the way a leaf falls gently from a tree in the fall.
I would soak in it. Like a sea sponge expanding amid the waves. Or like a starfish returning to life after being tossed back into the sea.
Oh, let me rest among those healing waves of warmth and sunlight. And let the peace wash over these newly made wounds."
Have you ever had a moment in time, where you found yourself at the intersection of a whole new set of crossroads?
The plane has crashed... the survivors are few, battered, and weakened, but in general fine?
And looking into a mirror... you find yourself asking, "Where do we go from here?"
Well,. . . I have found this very moment. Huddled along with the meager survivors of a shattered existence.
And I cannot help but wonder.
"Where do we go from here?"
Where?
God only knows. . .
~ Crystal LM ⛅✨🌌
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