When the going gets rough... the rough get going...

I still don't know where that saying came from. Like alot of them old ones, you'd probably have a heck of a time tracking down the source.  Cute puppy pic, though. {-^.^-}

                   I've suddenly become inspired.
          But... not necessarily in a good way. I'm not really sure I want to share that bit, . . . yet...

          I'm not sure what's going on with my hormones... but lately, I have been. . . drooling over every hot guy I see... X_x       Gah!  I need to... get my mind off them. . . It's got to be the hormones!
          Luckily, I've been able to keep most of my thoughts in my head. To myself. But... I really do need to like... I don't know work it off. . .

                I just keep telling myself... "Don't get Dick-stracted!"  Lol. I still find that funny. X-D

            Being without a phone, though. Is... like... well, . . . its no picnic!   I find I am without a map, a communications device, and an information source.
            Luckily I had a backup. (My Tablet). I've been using it for everything! Maps. Weather. Checking the time when I'm out and about... ect. It's amazing! The things you need a phone for! I had always used the app on my phone to check my cards balances... Now? I have to go online. I could have called, right? Not without a phone!!  Sweet Jezuz!!! ((*.*))      WE'RE ALL GOING TO DIE!

          Lmao. But seriously... its rough.

                        Luckily my downstairs neighbor heard about my new job. She's very nosy. Haha. Which I guess is good. But anyways, she printed me out a map from her computer. On the route from here to the place where I need to go to Friday. What a sweetheart. 💜  ^_^
         That way I wouldn't get lost. :-/     Weird, but I actually inspired her to sign up for housing. Heheh. I hope she gets it. But I also hope she doesn't leave these apartments. She's the nicest one here, so far!

             Anyhow, getting back to the roughness... If something were to go horribly wrong Friday... You'll know. I'm sure. I would just die, if... say... my tire went flat, or something... Just to be safe, I drove her again today. Dear Lord, please let me get paid on Friday! I need the gas money. I had to spend my last poe (money - 'pieces of eight' in pirate speak) on a pair of freakin shoes for this gig! Oye. And they HAD to be ALL black! No color!!  Who the hell...? But ah,... whatever... It's going to be rough... but Jehovah God willing... I will make it!
                 And bless my soul, there just happens to be a MetroPCS in the building right next to where I'm going!!
                 Thanks Jehovah. And thanks again for the plantains. They really hit the spot when I'm craving something sweet to eat that won't kill me. Haha.

                 Well...  I'm off to do more research... I've figured out so far, that unless Cleburne's train (the Amtrak) has one that goes all the way to the airport... it would just be easier for me to commute it. Wit me car!

                Wish meh luck, mi amigos.

                                                                                       ~ Crystal LM 💛😎😓😏😕

*.* ~The bitter taste... of small Victories!!~ *.*

                                     This weekend... I pushed myself. Hard... and for all it was worth, despite the pain, the tears... and the definite fears... I made it!

                           Not to mention my poor phone.... alas poor Yourick... I knew thee well... Lol.

                 But the sacrifices were worth it. And I know... that it will all be worth it in the end.
Despite the struggle. I am excited and proud of myself. For going the distance. And getting a job.
                 Though, getting it would not prove to be the hard part.
                                   But keeping it...

               Jehovah has gotten me this far...
                   The road ahead is long. And the pay is scarce... but I will push... myself... for the sake of... my own future. And my own self-confidence. So that in the end... I can say... 'at least I tried. I went the distance...'

                  Training starts on Friday. [-^_^-]

                                                                                   ~ Crystal LM 🙏🙌💚💪😆😄😜

A Revelation on... "The Dark Ages" - Why they may have been soo dark.

Those 'Midi-Evil Times!'

By  Crystal Lynn Miller  (Oh like you didn't know...)

                I've finally figured out, why I've been soo fascinated by those tempestuous(horrible) times “The Middle Ages.” or as some refer to them, “The Dark Ages.”

           I always had trouble understanding several things about them.

Most people like to place the blame on God. Saying, 'Well if it wasn't for Christianity, they wouldn't have slain soo many “Saints” (as they called them)... or done so many horrible things... They wouldn't have had so many wicked priests back then. Killing innocent people over suspicions of witchcraft... ect.

 Crazed crusaders who thought it their righteous calling to go forth and slaughter all those who did not accept their faith! 

Or plague after plague of horrible disease! And the world then, would not have been in such chaos. That God shouldn't have made mankind suffer so...'

 <--- Depiction of The Coroners wagon gathering the dead during the Bubonic/Black Plague as it was called.

 Many pregnant woman were told to prepare for their death, because of the survival rate of mothers giving birth was slim.     ------------>

<------- Medical procedures were said to have been rather dangerous. And not to mention extremely painful.

         

                    And honestly you can't blame them. What with the things Christendom did at that time. Killing millions of innocent people along with the criminals.

            In fact I read another article on it, that said that back in those days some priests who were known as 'healers' (because of the rampant diseases going around), would often use pagan practices/rituals in order to attempt to bring a person back to health.

But after taking the time to study it... And piecing together the entire time-frame. It all really does make sense!

God didn't “Cause” The Dark Ages. Rather... he allowed these things to occur. And here's why it all happened...

There's more to the story... you see...

After Jesus was returned valiantly to heaven... He began a rather long period... to rid the heavens of all the corruption that may have formed up there. Right? Due to so many angels having rebelled back during the age of the nephilim. (The Nephilim were the offspring of the "sons of God" and the "daughters of men" before the Deluge, according to Genesis 6:4 of the Bible. According to Numbers 13:33, they later inhabited Canaan at the time of the Israelite conquest of Canaan. --Wikipedia

Encyclopaedia Judaica COPYRIGHT 2007 Thomson Gale -

NEPHILIM (Heb. נְפִילִים), a race of giants said to have dwelt in pre-Israelite Canaan (Num. 13:33). Genesis 6:1–2 relates that the "sons of gods," i.e., divine or angelic beings, took mortal wives; verse 4 continues, "It was then, and later too, that the Nephilim appeared [lit., were] on earth–when the divine beings cohabited with the daughters of men, who bore them offspring. They were the heroes [Heb. gibborim] of old, the men of renown.")

                    During this time, the whole of heaven's efforts, were placed upon accomplishing this one tumultuous task.As a result, I would sumize(summarize) there were no angels, beings, ect... to remain on earth. And aid mankind.

In the whole of human history. Mankind has never been left in such a state before.

Besides this, as I'm sure he went through heaven quite thoroughly... One by one, those demons he would cast out, would begin no doubt to fall to the earth. Or... perhaps flee to there. Where they could be safe, for a time. Since the heavens were in a cleansing state. And there would no doubt have been no where for them to hide there.

Now, what do you suppose, a myriad of fallen wicked angels/spirits would do finding themselves stuck upon the earth, among the sons of men?

Hence, they called them, “The Dark Ages.”

And of course, as we all know the rest of the story...

In 1914 the heavens had been completely cleansed. Satan had been cast out of heaven. And the good angels were allowed to return to their former duties. And aid Jesus' followers back on earth.

While the newly appointed King, Jesus Christ. Was stationed upon his throne. Thereby coming into power in heaven.

And right away, he noticed that men had become corrupted by the wicked influences around them. And began another long campaign.

Which of course will someday reach it's climax. At h'armageddon. blah can't spell. (Armageddon).

And now you know... the rest of the story... [^_~*]

It's all just common sense... Pieced together by what we know, and what is the truth!

-(Rev. 12:12)

                                               Please note:   I wrote this because I want to remember why the dark ages had been soo dark. Because people often talk of them being some of the worst times in human history. And speak of such atrocities associated with those times.

            And thought that others might be interested in my personal findings.

            That is all.

                                                                                          ~ Crystal LM (-_-)

Visited By The Midnight Hair Styling Elves...

I will never know... who comes to do my hair while I am asleep. Lol. But they do FABULOUS work! Haha. Like the night-time worker elves. Lmao.

~ Crystal LM 😄

"It's To Work, or To Jail..."

                   If you can't make light of the bad times... what can you do about them? 😏

 🎵 'ALL HAIL!

ALL HAIL!

Cause it's the greatest of sales!

EVERY - THING - IN - SIGHTS - GOT TO BE SOLD!' 🎵

Yup. TV. Always tryin to sell you something... That's why I luv this song. So true.

~ Crystal LM 😞😔

"To See You Dressed In White... That's 'PRICELESS'..."

                           With the sex slave-trade still trading millions of shattered lives,

                All women really want... is the chance...

the honor...

                                          ...to wear that wedding dress.

                If any of you... ever get the chance to watch an extremely moving film of recent... I should hope you would have the pleasure to check this one out.
                 That man... was A REAL MAN.
                                     They just don't come like that anymore...

             

~ Crystal LM 💝

Homemade Chicken Nuggets and Fries :-9

                      Finally made that recipie.

Gluten Free Almond Flower Chicken Nuggets!

                         

Tastes just as good as it looks! A little spicy, tho. Maybe leave out the paprika next time. :-9  Bon' Apetite'  -^.^-

~ Crystal LM 👍👌😋💁🍛🍗🍟🙏

Caturday Mornin... Oh, Caturday Mornin...

*sung to the tune of  'Blue Monday' by Fats Domino*

I've good news. Today I talked to my landlady. (The nice one. ^_^ Hee.hee.) And she said that they could do the pet deposit in 2 payments. 😊

           So I talked to my Neighbor who gave me this flyer. And she said she would love to go with me Saturday to look at the Cats. I researched thee adoption fee online. It looks like it's going to be about  [ $15.00 ] . 😄✊            Which makes NOW the best time to look. (^.^)

                         Now, I know I haven't been having much luck in gaining a kitty. But this time I'm going to try for a much older feline. One that... should be... more independent. And not as needy. So that it will be easier for me to care for 'em. One things for sure. If this one doesn't work out... I'ma think I'll just forget ever trying again... 😢

                       But we'll see what happens. Fingers crossed, eh? ✌

                  You know... I used to be afraid of losing my mind. To me it was like the worst thing that could possibly happen to a person. Aside of course from being tortured and killed... or starving. Now that I think about it, starving would be just as bad... But anyways. I used to pray to Jehovah. Please oh please, don't ever let me lose my mind! I... I don't want to be some kind of psychotic laughingstock for modern society...
                But then I read this... And Mr. Carnegie's words... well... let's just say. Losing your mind... well. . . it doesn't sound so bad...  😏

                      Excerpt:           "Some authorities declare that people may actually go insane in order to find, in the dreamland of insanity, the feeling of importance that has been denied them in the harsh world of reality.
                      There are more patients suffering from mental diseases in the hospitals in the United States than from all other diseases combined. ( \ Circa 1936  / !)...
                     ...Why do these people go insane?... Nobody knows for sure. But he (a head physician of his time) did say that many people who go insane find in Insanity a feeling of importance that they were unable to achieve in the world of reality. Then he told me this story:
                     I have a patient right now whose marriage proved to be a tragedy. She wanted love, sexual gratification, children, and social prestige; but life blasted all her hopes. Her husband didn't love her. He refused even to eat with her, and forced her to serve his meals in his room upstairs. She had no children, no social standing. She went insane; and, in her imagination, she divorced her husband and resumed her maiden name. She now believes she has married into the English aristocracy, and she insists on being called Lady Smith.
                  And as for children, she imagines now that she has a new child every night! Each time I call on her she says: 'Doctor, I had a baby last night.'
               
                 Life once wrecked all her dream ships on the sharp rocks of reality; but in the sunny, fantastic isles of insanity, all her barkentines race into port with canvas billowing and with winds singing through the masts."

                                                                                           - Dale Carnegie

              Makes insanity... sound more like a comfort now. For those... whose lives got to be too much for them to handle. I often think... even if something does go wrong with someones brain cells, God put a natural defense mechanism within us all. One that puts us into a better place. {^_~*}

                                                                                      ~ Crystal LM 👍😏😌💚🔌🎶🎉🛂

You Have Chosen...

...BLISS...

                     I still find it sad. That people... . . . . . that men... simply aren't attracted to the pure, chaste, damsel in distress types anymore. They'd all rather have... independent, strong, head strong, and bold types instead.
         Mature. Right?
                      Forget the innocent awe we all have for life... they just want. . . the life!

                         Well,... if that's what you want...

                Fine.

             And nobody wants to hear about the bad times...
                    Though it's the truth.

              Just the good, right?

                            Because that is all they want to see. And nobody likes a girl who looks like she has something wrong with her... Even though it's true. Even if she does have something wrong with her... Let's just live in ignorant bliss... Shall we?

             So. . . from now on... I will no longer post the bad in my life... ONLY the good!
             That means, if you don't hear from me in a while... well you know I'm struggling with something. Be it, my health. . . depression... finances... ect...
              There will probably be alot of gaps. But ta hell with it. I will find another way to vent. [>_<#]   And... I will keep the anger... the frustration. The hurt to myself.
              So that all you all will see... is the whitewashed veneer of perfection! 😡

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                   In other news... I did enjoy our little road-trip to Houston this past weekend. *.*     It was a lot of fun. And nice. A nice getaway from it all. We went to the French Assembly there. At the exceedingly lovely Houston assembly hall at the Houston Fair Grounds.

 

                 I'm surprised at how easy it is to learn french at a convention/assembly. I learned alot! It's kind of a fun language.

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Though...

                  I'm starting to feel... more and more. . . like I just don't belong with Jehovah's people anymore... It just. . . ....... doesn't feel. . . like anyone genuinely cares. Or maybe I've just been away too long. (-_-,)  Jenna seh Qoi (Idk). But... I really don't want to get close to anyone... because. . . I don't want to get hurt anymore. And... now it feels like. . . it's all so fake to me.

                Don't worry, though. This will be my last sad post. You gloom haters, won't be hearing anything bad from me after this anymore. [-_-]        Unless... you read one of my stories. The same ones, I pour my heart out into. To make the readers feel my words. So they can get where the character's are coming from. Ect.

              I've also come to stark realization! . . . But... you know what? I think I'll just save that one... for my next novel.


              I've been praying alot lately.
                                            And this last time... I think God might be finally answering my prayers. Although... I won't know, until... after it happens.

              But I have such a sweet downstairs neighbor. 💙👩  She called me up today and said she had some good news for me. ^_^  And gave me this flyer from the local newspaper.

              So there is hope.

                                                 I might just go to a Cat Show that they are holding here in Cleburne. And the adoption fees will be greatly discounted for this weekend. We'll see what happens. Never know. (u_u,)

                                                                               ~ Crystal LM 😔😢😠😒😷🐱🐾