My Own Little Place in this world...

                  . . . I've got alot on my mind these days. They've been difficult to say the least. Of course, I can't always cook like I suppose I should. Be it, lack of energy, motivation, clean dishes (which I do tend to procrastinate on...), Anyways,...

                          I've thought about leaving before. . . but...
                                              I've really built up a fine home for myself. It hurts me just to think about having to leave all of it. And the hardship I would have to endure to make a move now... without any help? I cringe at the thoughts.
                           Besides. I love my little home too much to leave it. It's soo beautiful. [-*.*-] And... I've worked soo hard to get this far. . . Plus, I'm still working on some awesome projects for it... I just... I just can't leave 'er now! Not even if its to be closer to family or friends... 😢
          If they can't come to me... then they do not really wish me to be happy.
          For I AM happy here!!
                   True.
                               I get lonely at times. And depressed. Down because of being alone. And not having anyone near to comfort my woes.
            But...

                               I would gladly trade a few days of that.
             Then sacrifice the beautiful home which I have built up out of nothing...

                             Which God has granted me.
             Out of the kindness and generosities of his heart...
                                             
                                                            God is NOT an Indian-giver. Like Job made him out to be. This I DO Believe!!!   -(Job 1:21)

                             

I found this today... I haven't been sleeping well. And it made me realize...

I feel as though, I've found my own little place in this world. Like I finally belong somewhere...

I've searched a long time for that.

Always moving.

So sick of that.

No more!

HERE! Is where I make my STAND!!

I would rather live my entire rest of my life here. Alone and somewhat miserable. Then... have to live somewhere I feel I don't belong.

-_-

I know not where the words come...

But they come from the heart.

And ring ever true.

This is... just another storm.

But when God does call upon me to leave...

...then... I will go with his people.

Those winds may shake me...

But... my roots are deeply planted here.

Here at least.

I can stand.

Even if it's a struggle.

I know.

There will never be an easier place for me.

~ Crystal LM 😌