I still find it sad. That people... . . . . . that men... simply aren't attracted to the pure, chaste, damsel in distress types anymore. They'd all rather have... independent, strong, head strong, and bold types instead.
Mature. Right?
Forget the innocent awe we all have for life... they just want. . . the life!
Well,... if that's what you want...
Fine.
And nobody wants to hear about the bad times...
Though it's the truth.
Just the good, right?
Because that is all they want to see. And nobody likes a girl who looks like she has something wrong with her... Even though it's true. Even if she does have something wrong with her... Let's just live in ignorant bliss... Shall we?
So. . . from now on... I will no longer post the bad in my life... ONLY the good!
That means, if you don't hear from me in a while... well you know I'm struggling with something. Be it, my health. . . depression... finances... ect...
There will probably be alot of gaps. But ta hell with it. I will find another way to vent. [>_<#] And... I will keep the anger... the frustration. The hurt to myself.
So that all you all will see... is the whitewashed veneer of perfection! 😡
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In other news... I did enjoy our little road-trip to Houston this past weekend. *.* It was a lot of fun. And nice. A nice getaway from it all. We went to the French Assembly there. At the exceedingly lovely Houston assembly hall at the Houston Fair Grounds.
I'm surprised at how easy it is to learn french at a convention/assembly. I learned alot! It's kind of a fun language.
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Though...
I'm starting to feel... more and more. . . like I just don't belong with Jehovah's people anymore... It just. . . ....... doesn't feel. . . like anyone genuinely cares. Or maybe I've just been away too long. (-_-,) Jenna seh Qoi (Idk). But... I really don't want to get close to anyone... because. . . I don't want to get hurt anymore. And... now it feels like. . . it's all so fake to me.
Don't worry, though. This will be my last sad post. You gloom haters, won't be hearing anything bad from me after this anymore. [-_-] Unless... you read one of my stories. The same ones, I pour my heart out into. To make the readers feel my words. So they can get where the character's are coming from. Ect.
I've also come to stark realization! . . . But... you know what? I think I'll just save that one... for my next novel.
I've been praying alot lately.
And this last time... I think God might be finally answering my prayers. Although... I won't know, until... after it happens.
But I have such a sweet downstairs neighbor. 💙👩 She called me up today and said she had some good news for me. ^_^ And gave me this flyer from the local newspaper.
So there is hope.
I might just go to a Cat Show that they are holding here in Cleburne. And the adoption fees will be greatly discounted for this weekend. We'll see what happens. Never know. (u_u,)
~ Crystal LM 😔😢😠😒😷🐱🐾
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